Filed under: learnings, My happenings., Myself, school, Summation of my week
Now we are at the start of the second month of the year 2010. It’s freaking fast. Soon, i will be taking my prelims. I really can’t afford to fail any modules this semester. But seriously, i really CMI for POA, Maths and other modules that has figures. Becos another year would mean another lengthy process of borrowing money from bank and to graduate. Therefore, i got to start preparing soon. Prelims are as follows:
| 7/02/2010 | SAT | 10:00 | 12:00 | HQ | HALL4.03 | PUOLFT/AA-STAT1 | MCK | |
| 27/02/2010 | SAT | 14:15 | 16:15 | HQ | HALL4.03 | PUOLFT/AA-MATH1 | MCK | |
| 01/03/2010 | MON | 10:00 | 13:00 | HQ | HALL4.03 | PUOLFT/AA-ECONS | MCK | |
| 02/03/2010 | TUE | 10:00 | 13:15 | HQ | HALL4.03 | PUOLFT/AA-POA | MCK | |
| 02/03/2010 | TUE | 14:15 | 17:15 | HQ | HALL4.03 | PUOLFT/AA-ESAP | MCK | |
| 13/03/2010 | SAT | 10:00 | 13:00 | HQ | HALL4.03 | PUOLFT/AA-PMKG | MCK |
Yes, 2 Saturdays are gone because of my prelims. God, i need you and i want to go through this tough season with you.
What God spoke to me recently was the deeper meaning of the verse that most of us would have heard of or we would have read through as we read the Bible.
30Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’[a] – Mark 12:30
Since young, we were being taught that in order for us to have success over the things that we do, we’ve got to 用心, 用脑, 用力.
We’ve got to concentrate to do what we are given. I always remember that my mother always ask me to use my heart to listen to my teacher in class. When i am unsure of all the maths questions that exist, my cousin always force me to “use my brain”. When my aunt brings me to market when i was small, i just want to throw tantrum that i got no strength to help her to carry things, she would say “use my strength” (when i was helping her reluctantly). All these are great attributes that were inculcated in us that to do well in exams or CCA, we need to be use our heart, mind, strength. Then i began to ask God, then soul lei?
He revealed to me. 断魂 usually is used to describe people who met with an accident and his soul was gone (died). It’s so true that if we don’t love God with our heart (which means that we have other things in life that we may set it above God), don’t love God with all our soul (just doing all the physical work e.g.: purely working for the sake of working and not refreshed by God with our souls through daily QT, we will also 断魂 spiritually), don’t love God with our mind (we are not kingdom minded? Becos when you’re forcing your brain to think, you’ll think what are the decisions that you’ve got to make so as to please the One you love), lastly, don’t love God with your strength (you’re practically doing all the talking and not living it out). Love God –> Work it out with your strength.
Wow. Only when we engage in worshipping God with our heart, soul, mind and strength, there we will experience divine exchange with the Almighty.
Filed under: school
More of You (Abundant Ministry)
I thirst for You
The One who satisfies my soul
More of You, i’m asking for
I wait on You
My hiding place i rest in You
So precious is Your voice
Lord i love You
Really love You
Only in You i am complete
I need You
Really need You Lord
I draw nearer to You my God
With all aside, approach Your throne
Where grace, like a river flow
I bring praises to You my God
Sufficient One, my more than enough
More Lord, i ask for more Lord,
Just more of You.
As i reflect on the past 2 weeks when i was battling with exams. The scariest were my econs and maths paper. But guess what? During my first week of exams, i remember that i came home and went to bathe after i finished one of my papers, and i started singing this song, i could feel that there was a divine moment and i was totally refreshed. I know i am weak, unable, incapable, but God re-assured me that He’s my sufficient one, my more than enough. It just strengthens my inner being as i prayed in tongues.
I am proud and can be confident to say that i drew and drawing closer to God especially this period.
2 Corinthians 12: 9-10
9But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Thanks jasmine loh, jasmine sim, alvin, dennis, shar and all who have made me feel loved in one way or another when i have to go through exams. Thanks Loh for coming down to my house to give me a small slip of “jia you” card despite of your heavy responsibilities etc and the SMSes that you all sent. I think my family have seen how different church people are. Especially when it’s over 10pm, my house is as if having some party cos so many people were at my house on thursday night before my econs paper.
After my exams, i will have all the time in the world to blog about many things, especially those which really wowed me. However, for now, this will be it as yet.
Filed under: school
I could still vivdly remember how God blessed me to be able to enter into a local university in the midst of adversity (becos this year, i’m competing the dragon babies). Bad news comes one after another when i received their rejection letter, and i was starting to lose hope till the last part… The fact was that i had no intention to apply into SIM, but becos shar asked me to apply and i did that out of obedience. I remember when i went into SIM to apply, i told myself “i hate this school” becos i think their infrastructure sucks. I went round and round the school to look for the student recruitment office, and you know what? I took 30mins. The week after, i had a dream, i dreamt that i wrote SIM as a wish cos in my dream, God took my life by mistake and He wants to compensate. When i woke up, i remember telling myself “Thank God it was a dream”.
Oh well, you know the latter part of the story.
I had a hard time at home becos my choice of field which i have chosen to study in Uni. My bro discouraged me, forced me, oppressed me to choose finance and banking, or accountancy (*ps: i’m really bad at figures). I could still remember me telling him firmly that i want to go into business after many attempts of “brainwashing” by him and he even called my cousin to talk to me about this. His response was “i’m not going to help you for applying the education bank loan for Uni unless you take either choice(as mentioned above). After hearing that, i kept all the documents and i went to bed. I prayed. Other than telling God how unreasonable he is and so uncertained about many things ahead, i asked God to give me a sign if i’ve made the right choice.
Come to think about it, i don’t really know why i insisted so much. (other than my passion and maybe my stuborn-ess) But in my heart, i know it wasn’t an act of impluse.
On my way to school, i was listening to the radio, and the recent news was that a director of a large finance company went to a local uni to give a talk, told the present 2,400 graduates of finance and banking, and accountancy that their vaccancy for next year is only 1. This information may seems abit irrelvant to you, but beneathe this, i know and i’m certain that God is giving me a sign. A sign of confirmation. This really teaches me that as long as we serve God, He will not shortchange you.
Things to study in Uni is tough. But journalling all these little small parts to see me through the years of my Uni will encourage me when i were to look back 3 years later. I really wanna trust God. I know that all these things, i don’t deserve them, but He gave it to me.
Thanks Daddy.
